doubts

my heart feels that there is something wrong with how things are but i cannot say which exactly.
since the new relationship has started, this is the first time i have felt like this. i have always been sure. now though, i feel like everything was brought about by impulsivity and childishness.

i think he is only with me because of the company. i'm not sure if i should just accept it for what it is. i would have, so easily, but things have changed. we have gone deeper. we have proclaimed feelings and sworn expectations, exchanged words you can't just take back. we're at the point of make-or-break.

tell me now, love. is it worth it?

some nights are for doubting

Is it ever going to work?
Are you going to hurt me? Can you tell me now?
I'm already in too deep.
Because days come when you feel like you can but end up wishing you didn't.