i haven't been writing here. i guess we grow tired of our own voice eventually after years of whining. but i just need this right now.
i'm broken but i am trying hard to not fall apart. i have worked so hard for the past three years to keep my sanity intact and i can't let something so stupid get in the way of my progress. i am not going to fall apart. eyes forward, head in the game.
i was going to cardio this morning but i was too hungry so i ended up getting a meal instead. now i want to cardio but can't because i'm full. yeah, life. i'm getting bothered by my physical state and decided to get back into fitness. i really need to get a yoga mat though. and start a habit of exercising in the morning instead of the afternoon.
my financial situation is very weird. i am not super broke but i need constant work to maintain this lifestyle. i am spending so much in a day. i really need to figure out how to spend less by cooking and commuting. i'm also getting air-conditioning and internet connection next month so good luck with that. i really wanted to take a break from working my ass off but i guess not. i wish more work would come when i get back from japan.
most of all, i really need to be happy again. i pushed myself and now i'm on a slump. i knew it would happen but i guess i was hoping that maybe, maybe it wouldn't. i just never learn.
i really need my friends and i really need someone to talk to. the loneliness is killing me.
