i just figured

It's time i get in touch with my feelings regularly.

I haven't been as productive as I should. I think this is really proving to be one of those transitional phases except that I have unfinished business(es) I need to attend to. I am learning what it's actually like to be a grown-up--you can't just reinvent yourself as easily. You are responsible for things and people and bigger things.

is anybody out there?

I'm back to my pseudo-normal life. I'm working. I'm fighting. I'm in a semi-normal relationship. As normal and basic as it can get given the circumstances.

I'm fixing my life before it hits rock bottom. Nope, it hasn't hit that yet but it's cutting it too close.

I'm cleaning and re-arranging my room. As normal as normal gets. Then I have to buy dinner. Then I'll probably smoke and read and listen to music. As normal as normal gets.

Normal gets you nowhere, I know. But as long as it's not rock bottom.