craving creativity

 it's been a while since i've been creative and i crave it.

i'm lucky to have work that allows me to be creative but there's still something different about being creative with no limits. creating from nothing, no brief, no branding guidelines.

here are some creative projets that i look forward to doing:

1. my travel journals

- japan

- europe

- taiwan 24

- taiwan 25

that's a lot so i need to get started. it's just hard with a kid. being creative on a computer means a much lesser chance of things being messed up by a kid. working with your hands there's 99% chance.

2. video DJing

oh i miss resolume

it does require a lot of time though, from what i can remember 9 years ago

i've been looking for courses. we'll see.

3. photography

i want to take more photos! but i want to level it up. i'm not sure yet how but also experimenting will answer that.

i will stop working in film

i will stop working in film. it is not good for my mental health. i will stop slaving away for measly pay, upfronting money that will never make its way back. i will stop trying to fix a broken system. i no longer want to talk about where the film industry will lead us to. i no longer want to work in male-dominated sets, and constantly hear snide and sexist remarks, whether directed to me or others.

there are a lot of reasons why i would no longer work on a film set. but there are also some reasons why i would keep doing it in a different way, away from all of them.

only time will be able to tell. for now, i have no path, no ambition, no set plans. i am just here, present, happy, fulfilled.