2020

i'm supposed to reflect on 2019. i'll attempt to do it the only way i know how. by writing.

2019 was shit. i made all the wrong decisions. i was presented with the best opportunities but i didn't make the most out of them because my head was too far up my ass. i was not mindful, i was not present, i was not grateful.

all i wanted was to catch a break, to get away from everything. i had little appreciation and all i could think about was when all of it would be over.

2020 will require being the most together i have ever been. focus and mindfulness, that's all i need and everything else will follow. i have developed a kind heart through practice over the years so it is time to move on to the other side of things.

while it is hard to finish the projects i have committed to as a person with no ambition, it should all go down to telling the stories we want to tell, creating friendships, human connections, gaining life experiences, and living every moment of it fully.

2020 will be about financial stability. as long as i set my mind to it, i know i can do it. but just one variable, i need to align with my new partner. we have to be in this together or else it will all just fall apart.

let's see.