money

I am writing here in the hopes of getting my creative juice flowing. I have a deadline in a few hours and I'm exhausted from caring for my newborn. I wish I didn't have to work. I wish I could spend all day taking care of him and recovering physically and mentally myself.. But such is life.

The bottom line is, I need more money. I'm pretty proud of what I've been able to do so far. I went through my third trimester of pregnancy working super hard and now, I am almost free of debt. The problem is I didn't know the fourth trimester would be this tough. I barely sleep, my body's still not at it's optimum, and I can barely finish work. As much as I want to recover fast, I must also be patient with my body and myself, and take this time to enjoy the early days with my baby.

But this one last job that I have to do, I have to do really well. I've been late with submissions for the past projects and I really want to keep getting jobs from this agency because they're easy to work with and they pay well. I am also getting burned out from my full-time job so I am considering letting go of that. But it might not be the best decision right now to let of a stable and secure job even though it pays less.

I'm really at a point where I just want to provide for my family. I wish the universe would allow that. I wish the universe would see that this time, I am trying to make things right. Or maybe it's time to reflect on things, my priorities and my life goals. The clearer they are to me, the easier it would be to manifest them from the universe.