hey ho 2018 let's go

people write so much about the new year and i don't want to pretend that this is one of those. that something is ending and another is beginning. it's really just the same old thing.

 

but just this day on, not because it's new year, i will be more aware of the people i take for granted. there are people i spend so much time, money, and energy on but are not worth as much.

when it comes down to it, i don't regret spending on my family. not one bit. i don't regret spending on the taiwan trip. the only spending i regret are the impulsive ones. the little stuff. i must learn to be less impulsive. 

apparently, the things i constantly worry about aren't what really matters. the only thing i regret is that one shit of a project i had to go through. but everything else is fine. life is fine. work is fine. friends, family, lover, they're all fine. i'm fine.

so if i could plan my 2018, here's what it would be like:

january 

look for a producer for mamang

maybe cynthia alexander

maybe laneway,  probably not

lucban with family

february

get mamang pre-prod rolling again

maybe guimaras, probably not

march

pre-prod for an april shoot

apply for a canadian visa

april

shoot mamang

may

post for mamang

coron with cousins

fly to vancouver

june

post for mamang

i think i'm ready. i'm fine. i'll be fine.