dear diary

i am in love and i am scared of the feeling.

i think last night was proof that i'm not ready. people teasing me around the guy made me want to hide under a rock.

i haven't liked someone this much in a while; it's almost alien.

it's crazy how we pull away from the person who loves us only because we can't understand why they chose us. why me? what makes me special? are you sure? are you really, absolutely sure?

i taught myself to be logical when it comes to love and relationships and yet, i find myself here again. stuttering, stumbling, hiding.

i need to reconcile with my insecurities and maybe get a shot at being happy with the person i truly love.